It's Been Over a Year

It's been more than a year, however, I still can feel you

I dream about you sometimes.. never scary :)

I know you won't do such things to me :)

I think about you often... though I never talk to others about this..

I like to recall you.

I miss our conversations, our little fight, calling you on the weekend..

I really miss those things...

I really really try to remember what was the prayer letter you asked me to read in my dream that day.. but I couldn't..

m kinda sad because of that.. :(

And I don't know why... tonight I miss you so badly, Om :(

It's quite mess down here, you know.... I'm afraid it can't be repaired..

Time is ticking.. somehow I have a feeling, there's not much time left.

There shouldn't be another loss to gain peace and happiness among us, don't you think?

It's been over a year.. and you have appeared couple times.. I did enjoyed all of 'em..

And still I hope to get another vision of you.. again and again.. :)

Well.. that's all for now, I feel much better now...

TTYL, Om.

(Om John Rinaldy, 17 March 2010 - 17 March 2011)

Pergilah Kau

Tak mau lagi aku percaya
Pada semua kasih sayangmu
Tak mau lagi aku tersentuh
Pada semua pengakuanmu

Kau takkan mengerti rasa sakit ini
Kebohongan dari mulut manismu

Pergilah kau!
Pergi dari hidupku
Bawalah semua rasa bersalahmu

Pergilah kau!
Pergi dari hidupku
Bawalah rahasiamu yang tak ingin kutahui

Tak mau lagi aku terjerat
Pada semua janji-janjimu
Tak mau lagi aku terpaut
Pada semua permainanmu

Kamu takkan mengerti rasa sakit ini
Kebohongan dari mulut manismu

Pergilah kau!
Pergi dari hidupku
Bawalah semua rasa bersalahmu

Pergilah kau!
Pergi dari hidupku
Bawalah rahasiamu yang tak ingin kutahui

Bertahun-tahun bersama
Kupercayaimu
Kubanggakan kamu
Kuberikan segalanya
Aku tak mau lagi
Ku tak mau lagi...

Pergilah kau!
Pergi dari hidupku
Bawalah semua rasa bersalahmu

Pergilah kau!
Pergi dari hidupku
Bawalah rahasiamu yang tak ingin kutahui

**by Sherina**

Suara Nurani

Setiap lewat di perempatan matraman, dari arah proklamasi menuju pramuka, di sisi kiri jalan ada gedung ABDI, Alat Bantu Dengar Indonesia. Refleks langsung terpikir untuk mampir, beliin untuk om PS..

Sama sekali ngga ingat sekarang hanya dengan bisikan doa, om pasti bisa mendengar.

Beberapa kali mimpi tentang ci Olly, selalu ada ekspresi unik cici, yang setengah manyun digodain mama, atau ko Roni, atau alm om J. Sesaat terbangun, refleks lagi ambil hp, sms isengin cici ah... :)

Sekali lagi lupa, cici punya "jalur telkom" spesial.. tak teraih dari network Telkomsel.

Memang baru setahun tangan tak lagi dapat menjabat, tapi beban rindu ini telah membukit dan demikian berat.

Memang sudah setahun kami terpisah alam dan raga, tapi rasa itu selalu ada.
Ikatan ini terlalu erat untuk diceraikan.

Kita memang tak lagi bisa menyentuh, memeluk dan menatap..
Namun komunikasi hati dengan hati tetap terjalin.
Suara fisik itu tak nyata terdengar, mungkin karena nurani mengajaknya menetap.

Just listen to our heart, then we listen those voices still talking and whispering gently, ask us to keep moving forward in life and never give up. Love you om and cici... forever and always.

(30 September 2009 - 30 September 2010)

lima menit

langit berawan, berujung hujan
semilir angin berhembus pelan
kurasa dingin yang tertahan...

kala raga terhalang jarak
hati merapat hangat,
bersama rindu yang marak

cukup lima menit siang ini
sapaanmu menghalau sepi
terebak senyum nurani

membuat sabar hati menanti
detik-detik bertemu lagi...

Breathe Again

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over?
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew...
Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say...

I just want to breathe again..
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
Live a little more

I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more..
I'll breathe again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck...
It's a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away...
Don't want to live a life's replay

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more

I'll breathe again...













(Ning)

Forgiven, not Forgotten

"Sorry...., it's all that you can say..."

Yap.... sorry was all that you could say...
You were definitely not singing that time,
"I'm serious........." (with a long pause.....)
But why.. it sounds.. meaningless?

I might say, it touched me a bit, the way you said it..
But then... something just popped into my head,
'what kind of crap are you!'

Still you said "I don't wanna lose you"..
And still I forgive you.. this is not because I'm good, but I'm stupid..
Stupid enough to think that you are 'the new you'..
Silly enough to hope that you will change..

Well...you are not, and you never will..... :)
You're just trapped in the same situation, with a different cast.
I thought I could never understand you, but somehow I know you quite well.

One thing I regret...
When you uttered your second sorry,
I should have replied, "You're forgiven, not forgotten."

"Hope you pay the price."

Kutipan Sahabatku

Ketika kumohon pada Allah kekuatan,
Ia memberiku kesulitan agar aku menjadi kuat.

Ketika kumohon kebijaksanaan,
Ia memberiku masalah untuk dipecahkan.

Ketika kumohon kesejahteraan,
Ia memberiku akal untuk berpikir.

Ketika kumohon keberanian,
Ia memberiku kondisi bahaya untuk kuatasi.

Ketika kumohon satu cinta,
Ia memberiku sesama untuk kutolong.

Ketika kumohon bantuan,
Ia memberiku kesempatan.

Aku tidak selalu menerima apa yang kuminta,
tapi aku menerima segala yang kubutuhkan..