Letih

Aku lelah, Tuhan
bolehkan aku bersandar sebentar...

Hanya duduk diam dan menangis,
merasakan tanganMu menepuk-nepuk pundakku pelan.

Beberapa waktu lagi aku akan bangkit, Tuhan,
kembali seperti aku yang biasa.

Namun saat ini tolong peluk aku erat,
aku letih...

     

Last Note

Farewell email :)

Last Note

There is a quote, "Love your job, but never fall in love with your company."

Oh hell... I tried not to, but I fell anyway.

How can I not?

I started from nothing and learned a lot. I've been up against great and dreadful moments. I got bored and desperate lots of times, but surprisingly there was always a change that made me chose to stay and did my best.

Invaluable experience gained from a place that I prefer to call "University" instead of "Company", which had a complete package of knowledge, social relationship and professionalism, built by people incorporated in it.

After 9 years and 5 months, I "graduated".

Thanks to all friends and partners and mentors and bosses who have made the 9 years of services became such a memorable time.

Special thanks to Pak Budi for being there at all times... a real "all times" even for burjo or Koreana :)
Your spirit, your thoughts and your caring really inspired me.

OTA team... many thanks to Wei, Shashi and Shobha for the tremendous support and the pleasant chat though we barely met :)

Viswa... big thanks!  You are a great partner!
I am honored to have chance to work with a hard worker like you.

At last, good luck everybody!

C U when I C U  :)

Keep in touch,
ladybug

Dilemma

"Marriage... We take the tradition and decorate it our way."

I got this line from "Sex and the City the movie".
Somehow i found the meaning is so rich and deep.
Most couples start to be different after married, follow the 'conventional' rule to be a husband or wife.... just because....
Just because, everyone else did the same way, as if there are no right things other than that.

I believe my parents shall think the same.
The more I grow up, I can see that the public opinion is very very important for them.
It is something that you get and will stay with you until you die, and even after that... your successors shall carry the 'burden' of yours.
And your own personal thoughts...? that is not as important as "what others think".

I don't want to be like that.
It's not that I don't want to follow the rule or tradition, it's not that I intentionally don't want to be the same...

I just want to be me.
I just want to live my life.
I want to live before I die.
Just that simple.

And I often feel that everything becomes complicated not because I make it so, but people around put a lot of pressure on that.
What matters now is how long can I endure to keep providing what people expected, or should I ignore the feeling of my beloved...

I can't think more......

Black and White

Note from a friend : 

HATE has 4 letters, but so does LOVE

ENEMIES has 7 letters, but so does FRIENDS

LYING has 5 letters, but so does TRUTH

HURT has 4 letters, but so does HEAL

Transform every negative energy into a positive one...
It's our perception that makes the difference  :) 

**Nothing has any meaning except the meaning we give it**
Anthony Robbins

Comfort

Comfort...

is what I feel when I'm around you,

and it is more than enough

to just sit and hold your hand

in silence...

Darling, I Do

Golden leaves looked brown to me
The world had less color without you
Shapes in the sky looked plain to my eyes
The world had less color without you

I know plenty of people with eyes closed
They don't see you like I do
Darling, I do

Notes on the keys meant nothing to me
The world didn't sing without you
Birds in the trees fell silent for me
The world didn't sing without you

I know plenty of people with eyes closed
They don't see you like I do
Darling, I do

Darling, I do see you

**Landon Pigg**

A Prayer Away

I'm tired and shrouded in fear
I sit still and unloose things I cannot bear
I can't see You, but somehow I know You're near
Your soothing voice echoing around in silence is all I hear

I believe...
always believe,

You are just a prayer away.