Dilemma

"Marriage... We take the tradition and decorate it our way."

I got this line from "Sex and the City the movie".
Somehow i found the meaning is so rich and deep.
Most couples start to be different after married, follow the 'conventional' rule to be a husband or wife.... just because....
Just because, everyone else did the same way, as if there are no right things other than that.

I believe my parents shall think the same.
The more I grow up, I can see that the public opinion is very very important for them.
It is something that you get and will stay with you until you die, and even after that... your successors shall carry the 'burden' of yours.
And your own personal thoughts...? that is not as important as "what others think".

I don't want to be like that.
It's not that I don't want to follow the rule or tradition, it's not that I intentionally don't want to be the same...

I just want to be me.
I just want to live my life.
I want to live before I die.
Just that simple.

And I often feel that everything becomes complicated not because I make it so, but people around put a lot of pressure on that.
What matters now is how long can I endure to keep providing what people expected, or should I ignore the feeling of my beloved...

I can't think more......